I know I asked you all for your email address so I could invite you to my new blog. Turns out it's only letting me invite like 60 people. And that doesn't seem fair. So I'm opening it up to be public again. Please feel free to go over and check it out :) It's what I'm using now as my main blog. Here's the address:
p.s. I'm still working on adding you all to my other blog. It says i've added too many people :( But I'm still working on it. Or I'll just make it public soon.
If you'd like an invite to my Desiree/Jared blog (aka my current blog) you need to leave a comment with your email address. For all of you who have already left your email addresses, you've been invited :)
Also, thanks for all the questions! I'll be answering them all in a video that I'll make next Monday :)
I'm still alive. This blog is just currently "under construction" because of the fact that I'm not exactly still a MG. I will be again though, but not yet :)
I've said this before, but I have a different blog that I'm currently using. It's mainly about my relationship with Jared. If you'd like an invite, leave me a comment.
I know some of you may have questions, so now if your chance to ask. I'll try to answer any type of questions as honestly as I can. You can ask me about what happened with Preston, anything about being an MG, relationship advice, anything about my relationship with Jared, his upcoming mission, etc... You can even ask what my favorite type of pizza is. I don't even care :) I have just gotten quite a few questions from people, so this is my chance to answer them. Leave a comment on youtube or here, and I'll answer them in my next video :)
I'm finally back in Utah after 5 months in Hawaii. Although I will be returning to Hawaii in 3 months.
It's been a long time since I posted... But here's why.
Things were all crazy and dramatic in the MG group on facebook and people kept taking sides. Because of that, I decided to stop blogging for a while. But now I'm back :)
This blog is not JUST about being a missionary girlfriend. I do recall there have been posts about Justin Bieber, my love for the food network, and other random thoughts.
Now, a little update on my relationship with Preston: This week he told me that he thinks it would be best for him if we stop talking for awhile. That means no emails, no letters, no videos. It'll be weird not sending him weekly emails but I really believe it's a good thing :) It's time for me to focus on Jared and time for Preston to focus on his mission.
Alright, enough of that :)
I don't really know what else to write about.. So I'll just insert a video :)
Everyone keeps asking me, "Are you still waiting???"
Well, let me give you MY definition of waiting.
Waiting: not getting married while your missionary is gone.
And there's no way I'm getting married while he's gone. Jared still has his mission ahead of him. Everything is simple to me, but it seems complicated to everyone else. Which I understand. I'm focusing on my relationship with Jared and giving Preston some much needed space. He needs to get me out of his head 24/7 so he can focus on what's most important right now. His mission. Yes, we still send letters and stuff. But I'm trying to get him to focus on his mission while I focus on Jared right now.
Then, Preston will come home and we'll see how much our relationship has changed. I have no idea what will happen when he gets home. But I'm open to whatever my Heavenly Father see's fit for my life.
Some of you girls keep asking me questions that even I don't know the answer to. But I'll keep you all updated :) thanks for following this crazy adventure with me.
Girls keep asking me what my link to my blog about my relationship with Jared, so here ya go
Also, some people say, "How rude, you have two blogs about two different boys" But really, they are just like journals for me. This isn't just about Preston and the other one isn't just about Jared. They're about different experiences in my life.
Recently I've got some questions through emails, messages on YouTube, comments, facebook that sound like this:
How could you possibly be dating when you are/were such a dedicated missionary girlfriend?
How did you and Jared meet?
How did you know you were supposed to be dating?
Instead of writing about it, I just made another video. Sorry for all the videos, I'm just a video person. So if anyone has any other questions, feel free to comment/message/email me.
Preston has been gone for 15 months as of today. I remember when I had 15 months left. It keeps making me realize how fast time really does go by.
Anyway, as you girls know, things have changed. I just kind of made this video to explain the fact that I don't have "two boyfriends" like some of you have said.
So I thought to myself, "Now that I'm not studying like a mad person... What should I do?"
And the idea popped into my head.
BLOG.
So here I am :) I'm going to throw a lot of random ideas and thoughts at you. Probably a little venting too. But here we go.
This has been one of my favorite songs. Cody is adorable and if you haven't listened to him yet, you totally should. Just sayin'
Speaking of beaches (ok well we weren't talking about beaches, but I just watched Cody's video and there is a beach in it, so I got the thought of beaches in my head. Anyway..)
Me and my roomie who is leaving for the summer got our pictures taken at our beach the other day.
I never wanna leave this place.
Anyway...
Preston sent me this picture during our email chat on Monday. He's still the same Preston he's always been :) And he's wearing the BYUH shirt I sent him.. hehe :)
So, I really don't have that many baby names picked out. But ever since the first time I saw A Walk To Remember, I've always wanted to name my first son Landon. And I'm seriously going to. Preston is ok with it :) But now, I've decided on my second favorite boy name. Are you ready? It's...
Liam.
I just love it. And of course, my inspiration came from....
Liam Hemsworth!
Although I'm "team peeta" I have always loved Liam Hemsworth, ever since The Last Song.
And my next inspiration came from Liam Payne. Ya'll know One Direction, right? Of course you do. Well, I think Liam is just freaking adorable. I kinda like him a lot.
Speaking of One Direction. I'm sure you've all heard What Makes You Beautiful. It's an amazing song. If you haven't listened to it yet, go do it now. But i also loooooove their song "One Thing" and think the music video is quite cute.
p.s. I love the way they dress.
Ok, moving on.. :)
I think I'm ready for another change in my life. I've been a pretty big fan of change every since Preston left. He's been gone 14 months and out of that 14 months I've only lived at home for 6 months of it. I like change :) So here's what I'm thinking.
I wanna dye my hair.
I've been blonde forever.. I look the EXACT same that I did two years ago. It's time to mix things up. I'm thinking this color might be cool... :)
Thoughts? Comments??? :)
Also, while we're on the topic of "change" I've really really been thinking about going back with ILP to Head Teach in Lithuania summer 2013. Yeah... That's the summer after Preston gets home. And I know I'll want to spend every second with him. But for those of you who really know me, you know I have this appetite for traveling. I love it. I've always wanted to live in Europe too.
How could I pass up an opportunity to live in Europe for 4 months for FREE?
I literally wouldn't have to pay anything.
Plus, they'd give me money to spend while I'm there
Plus, I'd get to visit places like Sweden, Latvia, Poland, Finland, Ukraine, Estonia.. etc..
Plus, I'd get to be around little kids :) (my FAVORITE!)
Plus, it'd look good on my resume, seeing as i'm majoring in Elementary Ed.
Plus, It's the same type of place where Preston is serving. Hungary wouldn't be too far away.
Plus, yeah...
It looks beautiful to me :)
Anyway, I think this post is long enough now.
To those of you who read it, thank you for listening to my random rambling.
Only one semester left until Preston is home. CRAZY!!!
I love life and everything Heavenly Father has been blessing me with. I really am SUCH a lucky girl. I'd like to close this post with this quote that I've been trying to live by:
I am so sorry that I completely fell off the face of the planet during the last 2 months. I used to be so good at blogging. But lately my life has been insanely busy. I do a lot of homework, yes. But when I'm not doing homework, I go to the beach or something. Sorry.
I guess you could say I have a lot of explaining to do. But, I'll make it simple:
I prayed. And I got the answer that after a year of not even looking at other guys, it's time to date.
I dated some guys. It didn't really work out.
I was about to give up on dating, but then I met Jared.
He had a girlfriend back home in Utah, and I had a missionary, but we were both living on a little island out in the middle of the ocean.
So we decided to date.
Him and his girlfriend kinda fell apart (NOT my fault)
Then I changed my relationship status on facebook and the whole world fell apart. It's crazy how people react to a little change in relationship status. He never asked me to be his girlfriend or anything like that. But everyone here on campus knew we loved spending time together and whatnot, so we decided to be together.
So yes, now he is my boyfriend.
Yes, Preston is still my missionary.
Yes, I am still waiting for him.
I still write him every week.
I send him packages.
I email him.
I love him <3
But I've only ever dated Preston. I know that I have something to learn from being in this relationship with Jared.
And I'll get kinda personal here for a second. I'm so excited to get married. But unlike most of you, I'm so scared of it. I am so freaked out to get married. There have just been so many happy marriages in my life that have ended in divorce. I guess you could say I just haven't had the best example (my parents are a good example, it's just other relationships) And I know that if I ever want to feel 100% ready to get married, I will have to have explored all options. I didn't want Preston to get home, and then we get engaged and had the "what if... What if I would have dated on his mission and fell for someone else?" I know, I know. What a terrible thing to even think. But my Heavenly Father knows me. He knows that I need to date, and get that feeling of, "Yeah, Preston really is the one for me". I've always known he's the one, but I am young, and constantly changing, so I need to continue to get that feeling. So please, don't judge the reasons why I'm dating. I've had to deal with waiter-haters but I really don't want dater-haters :( I love all you girls. Just know that I'm doing the best thing for me.
I am soooo happy with my life right now. School is going swimmingly, I love living in Hawaii, I get to walk past the temple every day, Jared is wonderful and treats me amazing, Preston is my missionary who I will NEVER give up on. I'll be there at that airport on January 18th :) and I have an amazing family back home who loves me.
Sorry for the long post. I guess I just want to let you know that I am still waiting!!
I'm just focusing on me right now :) I want to be a better person for him when he gets home. Dating has been hard to get used to, but I know it's right.
<3
I love all you girls and I don't know where I'd be without you :)
(I know that was technically yesterday.. but it doesn't matter)
Preston has officially been gone for one year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have now passed the halfway mark. And now he only has 11 months left because he comes home in January. Seriously, yesterday I was freaking out. I walked out of my house and went to school, basically looking/acting like this...
So instead of writing about how excited I was. I'll just show you the video that contains all my happiness :) Enjoy!
p.s. I really do love him more than the day he left. I didn't expect the first year to be so easy. I can't wait to experience this next year. There's no way I'm not waiting for him :)
You can't tell. But in this picture I was dying inside. This was taken on the curbside at the MTC a year ago from yesterday. I just really can't believe we've come this far :)
Alright ladies, I have set a new goal. Here it is:
Blog once a week
Doesn't seem that hard of a goal, right? But it totally is for me. It's hard enough living in Hawaii and going to school at the same time. But I'm also working at the Polynesian Cultural Center. And then I live across from the beach. So... where does blogging fit into that? Yeah, it comes in last on the priority scale. But I just wanted to give kind of an update :)
I love living in Hawaii. I love going to BYUH. And more than anything, I still LOVE my missionary more than anything in the world. Exactly a week from today, we will be hitting the highly anticipated one year mark. I can't even believe it. Another thing is that recently I started casually dating. I prayed about it and felt like I should go on some dates and make friends and what not. I mean, I didn't date at all the first year, so I feel like it's the right thing to do for me. Preston on the other hand, wasn't so happy about my decision. But before he left, we both decided that me dating would be ok to do while he's gone. But he kind of changed his mind since he's been gone. Which is totally understandable. So recently we had a little rough patch, but we worked through it and I believe we're stronger because of it :) He thought I was getting serious with other guys which is totally not what was happening :) I just want to say that fighting for what you love, and what you want most in the world is 100% worth it. Waiting for Preston isn't even hard because he's what I want :) I've always known that, and I know it more now than I ever have before. Will I continue dating? Yes. Why? Because it strengthens my love for him every time :) Alright. Enough with boring words and sentences. Here are some pictures of my recent life :)
La'ie Hawai'i temple :)
Working at the PCC :)
The people I hang out with every day :)
Hukilau Beach (1 min from my house)
Sunset Beach on the North Shore :)
My bedroom :)
Night swimming :)
My church :)
Entering campus :)
Sorry such a long post. But it's been almost a month since I blogged. I didn't want anyone to think I was struggling with waiting or anything :) I've just been so busy.
One last thing.. You didn't think I was going to have a post without including a couple recent pictures of my adorable Preston, did you? :)
He loves Hamburger Helper :)
Pretty sure this is against mission rules.. whatever :)
I love him so much :) :)
And for any of you who are following my youtube channel, I put a video a while ago but if you didn't see it, you can view it here :)
ONE MORE WEEK till ONE YEAR DOWN! :)
*insert happy dance*
I'd like to end with something my friend and creator of the Beehive Organization said yesterday, "Sometimes doing the right or best thing isn't always the easiest, however you can rest assured knowing that you will be blessed somehow for choosing the better option. . . This is what I will tell myself & all of you today! Before committing to a decision think about what will benefit you eternally or make you a better person. If there's any doubt, don't do it."
Thanks for that Linsey :) There's so much truth in that. Don't do something if you have any doubt. Because you want to be able to do it 100% and feel completely at peace with the decision :)
Why did I procrastinate packing for Hawaii until the night before I leave. The same night that the Bachelor & Pretty Little Liars starts. I am regretting it... I started a little packing yesterday and this how it ended:
Packing makes me tired. I'm gonna have lots of fun tonight... :)
p.s. Who else is excited for those two shows? I know I AM!!!
Today. Wednesday, December 28th 2011 is the day my sweetheart, Preston Dale Wright turns 20 years old!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!!
And this is a picture of us exactly one year ago today. We went bowling :)
I am just proud of him. So I am going to celebrate this blessed day by sharing 20 reasons why I love him
(expect some really random reasons)
I love his honesty, and that he tells me everything, and I can tell him everything.
I love that he appreciates a good key change in a song - just like I do.
I love all the crazy things he's done just because I asked him to. Ex: Dying my hair
I love his testimony of the gospel, and I love how he values it and how he's spending 2 years of life in the service of the Lord.
I love that he waited in line with me ALL day long to see Twilight :) while wearing an "I love Twilight" Basically I just love that he goes to sappy chick-flicks with me.
I love his attitude towards his family and his mom. He's so respectful in every way possible.
I love that he would tell me "Goodnight" and "Good morning" and "I love you" every single day. And how he'd wait up for me to get ready for bed because he wanted to call me to say Goodnight.
I love how he just lights up a room simply by smiling :)
I love that he goes Black Friday shopping with me :) even when it's way too early in the morning.
I love that he took me to do baptisms in my favorite temple (slc) right before he left.
I love that he always gets me the best/most meaningful presents :)
I love that he always remembers our month anniversaries, even when I sometimes forget.
I love when I'm driving and he just starts singing to me :)
I love that he writes me every week and records himself just because he knows how much videos and letters mean to me.
I love the way he listens to me when I have to vent, complain or just simply talk.
I love the way he says he loves me after he teases me.
I love that every day, I find a new thing to love about him.
I love that he smiles and always tells me, "You're gonna love it" when I have to go to a doctor to get a shot, or get blood taken. Because he knows how much I hate it. I also love that he always comes with me :)
I love that he trusts me.
I love that he loves me, and makes me feel like I'm perfect for him :) Because I know that he's perfect for me :)
Preston, if you're reading this, Happy Birthday Sweetheart <3
I will never forget this Christmas. It was the first year I actually "came home" for Christmas. It was the first year without my sweetheart. It was the first Christmas since I've lived in Utah where there wasn't any snow on the ground. It was the first Christmas I got to skype with him :) It was the first year where I wasn't too excited about opening any of my presents because I had already opened my package from him. And nothing beats his presents :) Basically... This Christmas was amazing. Here's a little view of it:
We got so much time to talk. I really am one lucky girl :)
"Ok I'm gonna take a picture"
"Should I do this?"
"Yes. It looks great :)"
I opened this package in front of him over skype :) so he got to see my reaction. And let me tell you. I was freaking out. I got the one thing I've been wanting for SO long!! His name tag!!! I also got:
One of his ties soaked in his cologne <3
A memory card with 30 videos <3
An amazing light up glass keychain with our picture etched inside <3
A little scarf <3
A card with Hungarian money inside <3
And of course, an amazing letter <3 <3 :) :)
I am in love with it :) and him :) he's seriously the best.
A few weeks ago Preston asked me to email him some pictures. So I said,
"Of course! Here are a couple of my favorites. Am I allowed to know why you randomly need these pictures?"
"I just love you so much :) is that a good enough reason? :) Because you are the love of my life!! :)"
"Ok..."
But now I know why he needed pictures. For this :) :) ^^^ I freaking love it!!! Without fail, he gets me thee best gifts every year.
I wore the cologne soaked tie all day. Who wouldn't? You can't really see it but I'm also wearing his name tag <3
My sister gave this to me for Christmas. She knows me all too well :)
Last but not least, the same sister gave this JB poster. I'm seriously so excited about it :D
Like I already said, I will never forget this Christmas :) Only one more to go before he gets home! And only 136 days till Mothers Day..... :)
Here's a little thought on talking to him at Christmas. It was the best thing in the world. We weren't awkward, we just laughed and talked like he never even left :) And I mean waiting hasn't been getting harder as time goes on or anything. But it recharged my waiting battery 110% :) But for those of you who didn't get to talk to your boys, you are also lucky, in a way. I wouldn't say that I had a "post phone call crash" but as soon as hung up, a little piece inside of me felt as though I was back at the beginning. Cuz for those couple hours that I got to talk to him, it felt like he was home. And hanging up felt like saying "see you later" again. Of course I was still happy :) but it just made me miss him a lot more than normal. I'm fine now though :) In fact, I'm more than fine. I am so freaking pumped for this next year! I am so excited for the packages that I have planned :) I'm not worried that waiting will get hard during these next 14 months. Because I know it won't :) I'm living my life, writing him every week, praying for him every day, focusing on myself, and just having fun :) He's still on my mind 24/7, but that's just because he's always with me. Always in my heart. Which is why I feel like I can be happy, and enjoy everything that this next year will bring :) I just can't wait!!
Well everyone, I am officially back in the good ole USA after 4 amazing months in China :) Which means I'll be updating my blog on a regular basis again! :)
I just can't believe how fast time went. I swear I was just posting about how I was leaving. I could write a million paragraphs about all my experiences there. But that's probably a bit much huh. So I'll just tell you about my "coming home" experience.
About a week before we left, I developed a pretty nasty ear infection. I thought it would be gone before we left China. Well, that didn't happen. So I flew from Hong Kong, to Korea, to LA, to SLC with this infection. It wasn't so bad at first, but by the time we got to LA I was dying. So when we landed in Salt Lake I was in a lot of pain. But nothing beat seeing my family and friends :) I am so lucky to have other MG friends who surprised me at the airport. Ashley, Alix, you guys seriously rock :)
I also witnessed some soldiers coming home. And wanna know the cutest thing? I witnessed one soldier coming down the escalader and when he got to the bottom, his girlfriend ran up and hugged him. Right after that, he kneeled down and proposed :) Talk about making me antsy.. It kinda really made me want my boy home right then and there.
Ok I got side tracked. Sorry. So then we left the airport and I went straight to the emergency room. I almost made it to 20 years young without ever stepping foot into that place. Dang my stupid ear infection.
(p.s. This was taken after the doctor stuck something in the ear and made me cry. I wasn't very happy)
They just gave me a ton of meds and sent me on my way. The next day I was nauseated alllllll day. I was so mad cuz I only have 2 weeks in Utah. But prayers really do work, and today I felt better. I am finally enjoying the Christmas season. I've got a lot of stuff to do in the next 3 days!
Basically, I'm just glad to be home :) It's so cliche to say, but there really is no place like home for the holidays :)
(And just to update you, me and Preston are just better than ever :) We get to skype on Christmas and I'm awaiting a Christmas package from him. We're still more in love than ever :))
I know I have been completely MIA ever since August 25th. But here's the thing. I am 100% a picture blogger. If I can't add pictures into my post, it just makes me not want to post. Which is why you haven't heard anything from me. I'm still in China. And yes, I can blog, but the proxy that I use to get to blogger won't upload pictures.
But that is not the point to this post. This post is dedicated to the amazing missionary that is my boyfriend :) He has been gone 9 months, 1 week and 1 day. I was supposed to write about this on November 11th but I was on vacation. Want to know why November 11th is so special to me? It's the day my sweetheart got his mission call :) Which means... It has been over a year since he got his call. Now see, I don't know if I believe this. There's no way it's been a year since I saw him opening that envelope. There's no way it's been a year since I saw the look on his face when he saw the words, "Hungary, Budapest" and in honor of that, here is the link to the video of him opening it :) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptGP69WRuPM
Now I really feel like we're getting close to the year mark :) and I know that once a lot of girls hit 7, 8, or 9 months, things usually start getting harder. Right? Well... Not for us :) I'm not even lying when I say we're only loving each other more and more with every day that passes. Which means, I know it's possible to not fall away from your boys. If any newer MG's are reading this, I want you to know that waiting really is possible, and easy sometimes :) Especially when you're as in love as I am :)
Now that I've done this post about milestones. I'd like to throw in my countdown of the near future :)
In 31 days - I leave China, and come home for the holidays :)
In 37 days - It's Christmas!!! You know what that means... Skyping with him!! :)
In 46 days - I hop on a plane and head to Hawaii to start school at BYUH
I heard all 3 of these songs either today or yesterday. They are the 3 songs that helped get me through when Preston first left in February. Really the only song I could listen to that didn't make me cry was this one:
Here Comes The Sun
Next was this one. Now this one made me cry. A lot. Hero
And this last song is one that I listened to a lot a couple weeks into his mission. When I was finally coming out of that really depressed stage. Certain lyrics fit exactly how I was feeling. It made me cry, yes. But it was one of those songs that even though it makes you sad, it makes you happy. Today My Life Begins
