(Warning: This post is not about me waiting for my missionary, so if you are looking for those posts, scroll down a little. This is something a little different) <3
Jared is my boyfriend while I'm waiting with 9 months to go.
I know all of you are "team Preston" but since Jared has become a part of my waiting process, I thought I'd include him with one post dedicated to him.
He really has supported me with waiting. He's such a sweetheart, and has been a wonderful blessing.
We've been dating 2 months today. He leaves on his mission sometime in the near future, so I don't know what will happen. But since this blog is supposed to be a diary of my wait, I just had to include Jared. Because he's become a wonderful part of my wait.
As if that wasn't enough, here's another 18 minutes of Jared and I answering some questions about how well we know each other. Sometimes we get bored on Friday nights and so this is what happens..
So I thought to myself, "Now that I'm not studying like a mad person... What should I do?"
And the idea popped into my head.
BLOG.
So here I am :) I'm going to throw a lot of random ideas and thoughts at you. Probably a little venting too. But here we go.
This has been one of my favorite songs. Cody is adorable and if you haven't listened to him yet, you totally should. Just sayin'
Speaking of beaches (ok well we weren't talking about beaches, but I just watched Cody's video and there is a beach in it, so I got the thought of beaches in my head. Anyway..)
Me and my roomie who is leaving for the summer got our pictures taken at our beach the other day.
I never wanna leave this place.
Anyway...
Preston sent me this picture during our email chat on Monday. He's still the same Preston he's always been :) And he's wearing the BYUH shirt I sent him.. hehe :)
So, I really don't have that many baby names picked out. But ever since the first time I saw A Walk To Remember, I've always wanted to name my first son Landon. And I'm seriously going to. Preston is ok with it :) But now, I've decided on my second favorite boy name. Are you ready? It's...
Liam.
I just love it. And of course, my inspiration came from....
Liam Hemsworth!
Although I'm "team peeta" I have always loved Liam Hemsworth, ever since The Last Song.
And my next inspiration came from Liam Payne. Ya'll know One Direction, right? Of course you do. Well, I think Liam is just freaking adorable. I kinda like him a lot.
Speaking of One Direction. I'm sure you've all heard What Makes You Beautiful. It's an amazing song. If you haven't listened to it yet, go do it now. But i also loooooove their song "One Thing" and think the music video is quite cute.
p.s. I love the way they dress.
Ok, moving on.. :)
I think I'm ready for another change in my life. I've been a pretty big fan of change every since Preston left. He's been gone 14 months and out of that 14 months I've only lived at home for 6 months of it. I like change :) So here's what I'm thinking.
I wanna dye my hair.
I've been blonde forever.. I look the EXACT same that I did two years ago. It's time to mix things up. I'm thinking this color might be cool... :)
Thoughts? Comments??? :)
Also, while we're on the topic of "change" I've really really been thinking about going back with ILP to Head Teach in Lithuania summer 2013. Yeah... That's the summer after Preston gets home. And I know I'll want to spend every second with him. But for those of you who really know me, you know I have this appetite for traveling. I love it. I've always wanted to live in Europe too.
How could I pass up an opportunity to live in Europe for 4 months for FREE?
I literally wouldn't have to pay anything.
Plus, they'd give me money to spend while I'm there
Plus, I'd get to visit places like Sweden, Latvia, Poland, Finland, Ukraine, Estonia.. etc..
Plus, I'd get to be around little kids :) (my FAVORITE!)
Plus, it'd look good on my resume, seeing as i'm majoring in Elementary Ed.
Plus, It's the same type of place where Preston is serving. Hungary wouldn't be too far away.
Plus, yeah...
It looks beautiful to me :)
Anyway, I think this post is long enough now.
To those of you who read it, thank you for listening to my random rambling.
Only one semester left until Preston is home. CRAZY!!!
I love life and everything Heavenly Father has been blessing me with. I really am SUCH a lucky girl. I'd like to close this post with this quote that I've been trying to live by:
I am so sorry that I completely fell off the face of the planet during the last 2 months. I used to be so good at blogging. But lately my life has been insanely busy. I do a lot of homework, yes. But when I'm not doing homework, I go to the beach or something. Sorry.
I guess you could say I have a lot of explaining to do. But, I'll make it simple:
I prayed. And I got the answer that after a year of not even looking at other guys, it's time to date.
I dated some guys. It didn't really work out.
I was about to give up on dating, but then I met Jared.
He had a girlfriend back home in Utah, and I had a missionary, but we were both living on a little island out in the middle of the ocean.
So we decided to date.
Him and his girlfriend kinda fell apart (NOT my fault)
Then I changed my relationship status on facebook and the whole world fell apart. It's crazy how people react to a little change in relationship status. He never asked me to be his girlfriend or anything like that. But everyone here on campus knew we loved spending time together and whatnot, so we decided to be together.
So yes, now he is my boyfriend.
Yes, Preston is still my missionary.
Yes, I am still waiting for him.
I still write him every week.
I send him packages.
I email him.
I love him <3
But I've only ever dated Preston. I know that I have something to learn from being in this relationship with Jared.
And I'll get kinda personal here for a second. I'm so excited to get married. But unlike most of you, I'm so scared of it. I am so freaked out to get married. There have just been so many happy marriages in my life that have ended in divorce. I guess you could say I just haven't had the best example (my parents are a good example, it's just other relationships) And I know that if I ever want to feel 100% ready to get married, I will have to have explored all options. I didn't want Preston to get home, and then we get engaged and had the "what if... What if I would have dated on his mission and fell for someone else?" I know, I know. What a terrible thing to even think. But my Heavenly Father knows me. He knows that I need to date, and get that feeling of, "Yeah, Preston really is the one for me". I've always known he's the one, but I am young, and constantly changing, so I need to continue to get that feeling. So please, don't judge the reasons why I'm dating. I've had to deal with waiter-haters but I really don't want dater-haters :( I love all you girls. Just know that I'm doing the best thing for me.
I am soooo happy with my life right now. School is going swimmingly, I love living in Hawaii, I get to walk past the temple every day, Jared is wonderful and treats me amazing, Preston is my missionary who I will NEVER give up on. I'll be there at that airport on January 18th :) and I have an amazing family back home who loves me.
Sorry for the long post. I guess I just want to let you know that I am still waiting!!
I'm just focusing on me right now :) I want to be a better person for him when he gets home. Dating has been hard to get used to, but I know it's right.
<3
I love all you girls and I don't know where I'd be without you :)
Alright ladies, I have set a new goal. Here it is:
Blog once a week
Doesn't seem that hard of a goal, right? But it totally is for me. It's hard enough living in Hawaii and going to school at the same time. But I'm also working at the Polynesian Cultural Center. And then I live across from the beach. So... where does blogging fit into that? Yeah, it comes in last on the priority scale. But I just wanted to give kind of an update :)
I love living in Hawaii. I love going to BYUH. And more than anything, I still LOVE my missionary more than anything in the world. Exactly a week from today, we will be hitting the highly anticipated one year mark. I can't even believe it. Another thing is that recently I started casually dating. I prayed about it and felt like I should go on some dates and make friends and what not. I mean, I didn't date at all the first year, so I feel like it's the right thing to do for me. Preston on the other hand, wasn't so happy about my decision. But before he left, we both decided that me dating would be ok to do while he's gone. But he kind of changed his mind since he's been gone. Which is totally understandable. So recently we had a little rough patch, but we worked through it and I believe we're stronger because of it :) He thought I was getting serious with other guys which is totally not what was happening :) I just want to say that fighting for what you love, and what you want most in the world is 100% worth it. Waiting for Preston isn't even hard because he's what I want :) I've always known that, and I know it more now than I ever have before. Will I continue dating? Yes. Why? Because it strengthens my love for him every time :) Alright. Enough with boring words and sentences. Here are some pictures of my recent life :)
La'ie Hawai'i temple :)
Working at the PCC :)
The people I hang out with every day :)
Hukilau Beach (1 min from my house)
Sunset Beach on the North Shore :)
My bedroom :)
Night swimming :)
My church :)
Entering campus :)
Sorry such a long post. But it's been almost a month since I blogged. I didn't want anyone to think I was struggling with waiting or anything :) I've just been so busy.
One last thing.. You didn't think I was going to have a post without including a couple recent pictures of my adorable Preston, did you? :)
He loves Hamburger Helper :)
Pretty sure this is against mission rules.. whatever :)
I love him so much :) :)
And for any of you who are following my youtube channel, I put a video a while ago but if you didn't see it, you can view it here :)
ONE MORE WEEK till ONE YEAR DOWN! :)
*insert happy dance*
I'd like to end with something my friend and creator of the Beehive Organization said yesterday, "Sometimes doing the right or best thing isn't always the easiest, however you can rest assured knowing that you will be blessed somehow for choosing the better option. . . This is what I will tell myself & all of you today! Before committing to a decision think about what will benefit you eternally or make you a better person. If there's any doubt, don't do it."
Thanks for that Linsey :) There's so much truth in that. Don't do something if you have any doubt. Because you want to be able to do it 100% and feel completely at peace with the decision :)
Why did I procrastinate packing for Hawaii until the night before I leave. The same night that the Bachelor & Pretty Little Liars starts. I am regretting it... I started a little packing yesterday and this how it ended:
Packing makes me tired. I'm gonna have lots of fun tonight... :)
p.s. Who else is excited for those two shows? I know I AM!!!
