Skyping for Mothers Day!

It's this time of year again. The time when flowers bloom, the grass turns green again, and missionaries get to call/skype home for Mothers Day! :)

Jared's family is amazing and invited me over to be there when Jared would be Skyping them. Mothers Day was on Sunday, but he said he'd be calling on Saturday (May 11th). I woke up so early that morning, I was too excited to sleep any longer. It's like it was the airport phone call all over again, but even better! I got ready, tried to look as cute as I could, and rushed over to their house at 9:30am. I brought my laptop because his mom didn't have skype. When I got there, I gave his mom a little gift I made. I messed around on Photoshop and created this little gem.

Right as I turned on my laptop and signed into Skype, Jared was online and my heart started pounding :) I messaged him and said...

At this point, I had MAJOR butterflies. Knowing he was about to call. I was about to see his handsome face. I was about to hear his voice. Talking to me.. Looking at me... I was just about ready to pass out :)

He called and got to talk for an hour and a half! :) For the most part we all just sat in front of the computer and talked about his mission. I seriously loved every second. Getting to hear about his mission is my favorite thing to hear. I love hearing about his experiences, the members, his investigators, the food, etc... It was really nice though because at the end, his mom let me talk to him :) Just seeing/hearing him say, "Hey Beautiful! I've missed you!" was worth these two months apart. And I know that seeing him again after two years will have made the whole wait worth it :) And as you can tell.. We were both pretty happy :)

Here's just a little clip of our conversation when we were saying bye :( 

You know that awkward "We need to say bye but we don't want to.. so we're just going to sit here and drag out saying bye as long as we can" type of feeling.

It was also really nice talking to him because he gave me great advice about Italy and what to expect when I go there (In 21 days!!) Apparently I need to watch out for the Italian men. Yay.... Anyway! I am so grateful his family let me be a part of this :) My waiting battery is officially recharged and now I can't wait till Christmas! What? I didn't say Christmas.. I'm not already counting down till he gets to skype again. Psh, what kind of crazy person do you think I am? ;)

(232 days till Christmas.. :D)

Prayer

I was having a tough day but then I came across these quotes. 

<3 <3 <3

I'm Still Waiting :)

I am so sorry that I completely fell off the face of the planet during the last 2 months. I used to be so good at blogging. But lately my life has been insanely busy. I do a lot of homework, yes. But when I'm not doing homework, I go to the beach or something. Sorry. 

I guess you could say I have a lot of explaining to do. But, I'll make it simple:

• I prayed. And I got the answer that after a year of not even looking at other guys, it's time to date.
• I dated some guys. It didn't really work out.
• I was about to give up on dating, but then I met Jared.
• He had a girlfriend back home in Utah, and I had a missionary, but we were both living on a little island out in the middle of the ocean. 
• So we decided to date.
• Him and his girlfriend kinda fell apart (NOT my fault)
• Then I changed my relationship status on facebook and the whole world fell apart. It's crazy how people react to a little change in relationship status. He never asked me to be his girlfriend or anything like that. But everyone here on campus knew we loved spending time together and whatnot, so we decided to be together. 
• So yes, now he is my boyfriend. 
• Yes, Preston is still my missionary.
• Yes, I am still waiting for him.
• I still write him every week.
• I send him packages.
• I email him.
• I love him <3

But I've only ever dated Preston. I know that I have something to learn from being in this relationship with Jared.

And I'll get kinda personal here for a second. I'm so excited to get married. But unlike most of you, I'm so scared of it. I am so freaked out to get married. There have just been so many happy marriages in my life that have ended in divorce. I guess you could say I just haven't had the best example (my parents are a good example, it's just other relationships) And I know that if I ever want to feel 100% ready to get married, I will have to have explored all options. I didn't want Preston to get home, and then we get engaged and had the "what if... What if I would have dated on his mission and fell for someone else?" I know, I know. What a terrible thing to even think. But my Heavenly Father knows me. He knows that I need to date, and get that feeling of, "Yeah, Preston really is the one for me". I've always known he's the one, but I am young, and constantly changing, so I need to continue to get that feeling. So please, don't judge the reasons why I'm dating. I've had to deal with waiter-haters but I really don't want dater-haters :( I love all you girls. Just know that I'm doing the best thing for me.

I am soooo happy with my life right now. School is going swimmingly, I love living in Hawaii, I get to walk past the temple every day, Jared is wonderful and treats me amazing, Preston is my missionary who I will NEVER give up on. I'll be there at that airport on January 18th :) and I have an amazing family back home who loves me. 

Sorry for the long post. I guess I just want to let you know that I am still waiting!!

I'm just focusing on me right now :) I want to be a better person for him when he gets home. Dating has been hard to get used to, but I know it's right.

<3

I love all you girls and I don't know where I'd be without you :)

My Comfort Songs from Feb 2011

I heard all 3 of these songs either today or yesterday. They are the 3 songs that helped get me through when Preston first left in February. Really the only song I could listen to that didn't make me cry was this one:

Here Comes The Sun

Next was this one. Now this one made me cry. A lot.
Hero

And this last song is one that I listened to a lot a couple weeks into his mission. When I was finally coming out of that really depressed stage. Certain lyrics fit exactly how I was feeling. It made me cry, yes. But it was one of those songs that even though it makes you sad, it makes you happy.
Today My Life Begins

I Believe In You

For some reason this past week has been a tougher one. We all have those weeks that are just a bit harder than the rest. So this week I've been addicted to two songs this week. #1 called I Believe In You by Il Divo. and #2 is As Sisters In Zion/We'll Bring The World His Truth. Sometimes we need to hear certain things said to us. Whether it comes from our parents, friends, boyfriend, or in my case, music. These songs really helped me this week :)  
Some lyrics from I Believe In You: 
"Lonely, the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go, be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you" 
You can listen to the song here:


Il Divo - I Believe In You (Il Divo And


And then here is my favorite version of this hymn :) I am so proud to be LDS :)
SUD - As Sisters in Zion/We'll Bring the World His Truth

"Fear not, Let your Hearts be Comforted"

I've been reading my scriptures soooo much since Preston left. I started D&C the day he left and I am already 3/4 the way done and it's only been a month and half. I'm somewhat proud of myself :)
I have found so many answers to prayers and also a lot of comfort that I couldn't have found any way else. These aren't in any order, but some of my recent favorites are:

D&C 98:1-3

1. "Verily I say unto you my friends, fear not, let your hearts be comforted; yea, rejoice evermore, and in everything give thanks.

2. Waiting patiently on the Lord, for your prayers have entered into the ears of the Lord of Sabaoth, and are recorded with this seal and testament - the Lord hath sworn and decreed that they shall be granted.

3. Therefore, he giveth this promise unto you, with an immutable covenant that they shall be fulfilled; and all things wherewith you have been afflicted shall work together for your good, and to my name's glory, saith the Lord."

D&C 68:6

6. "Wherefore, be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you..."

D&C 90:24

24. "Search diligently, pray always, and be believing and all things shall work together for your good.."

John 14:27

14. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your hear be troubled, neither let it be afraid. 

Proverbs 3:5-6

5. Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6. in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

 Colossians 1:11

11. Strengthened with all might, according to his glorious power, unto all patience and longsuffering with joyfulness. 

John 14:18

18. No, I will not abandon you or leave you as orphans in the storm - I will come to you.

I know there are a million other amazing scriptures. These have just been some recent ones I found. It's amazing how much I can see blessings in my life everyday. Reading the scriptures daily really works wonders :)