The Food Network = Cravings

Whenever i'm feeling down or I just want to watch TV, I watch the Food Network. It is serious therapy for me. I just love it. Because of the food network, I have a list of foods I need to try. 

 #1 Pinkberry

                                            

This is a frozen yogurt place. But they are known to be "tart" instead of tasting like dairy. I've also heard Taylor Swift talk about how it's one of her favorite places. I must try it! 

#2 Spread

There is a restaurant in California called, "Spread". They are known for their peanut butter. The one I am dying to try is number 73, the "White chocolate infused with pretzels peanut butter". Doesn't that just sound amazing? It soooo does.

#3 Panera Bread

I have actually been to this place when I was in Nashville. If you ever get the chance, GO THERE!

Get their Strawberry Poppyseed Salad. It is to die for. If you've ever been to Zupas and gotten their "Nuts About Berries" salad, It's like that, but way better :)

#4 Blue Bell

Blue Bell ice cream. I love this ice cream so much. Once again, you can't this in Utah. Preston introduced me to it when we were in Texas. And can I just say, it's the best mint ice cream I've ever had. It had a million little chocolate pieces in it. Not just a bunch of big pieces. Mmmm :)

#5 Chocolate Covered Pomegranate Seeds

 

I can't make a list of foods without including chocolate. I watched a whole show on the food network about chocolate covered pomegranate seeds. I know what you're probably thinking, "That sounds a little weird.." That's what I thought. But right now i'm highly contemplating making my own at home :)

Last but not least. Just try this:

3 Ingredients: Wheat bread, Nutella and a Banana 

Anything involving Nutella tastes good. Another favorite is dipping banana chips in Nutella. 

Wow i'm really hungry now. 

I'm gonna go make something :) 

I will have more of these food posts to come! 

 

Recap :)

I have been pretty happy lately :) Every other day I still have a breakdown.. But I'm getting used to it. I am now at day 18 :) In a way, if i look back on all the days, it's gone extremely slow. But if I think about it, I also feel like I just said goodbye to Preston. So it's gone by fast and slow. I'm sure some of you girls know how that feels.
So, Preston's first letter was depressing and short. I already blogged about it. I wasn't very happy... but oh boy did that change. His last letter was AMAZING! It was 7 pages long and just, amazing :) Then i also got a personal email this week! I was not expecting it. Which made it even better. I feel more in love with him now than i ever have. I know we can do this. We are going to prove so many people wrong :)
I'm pretty sure i'm obsessed with being a missionary girlfriend. But you know what, I am not ashamed and I do not care who knows. These are a couple things I got last week for my Birthday :)

Preston gave me this build-a-bear right before he left as a early birthday present. It has a voice chip inside and i absolutely love it :)

This looks silly. But I love it. Every bubble represents a day. Every morning when I wake up, I fill in another bubble :) This picture is a week and a half old. So i really am farther along than that :)

I am never giving up. I will never say never. This is not impossible. With God, anything is possible. I am using this time to focus on me :) If I put my mind to it, I can do it. Just never give up :)

Missing Him..

This is what happens when I'm home alone on Presidents Day...

I make slide shows. At least it's almost been 2 weeks!! Yay?

I just love this boy more than anything. And I really like this slide show :) 

    

    Song = I Wanna Grow Old With You - Westlife

You Make Me Crazier..

I'm crazier about this boy every single day. Being away from him makes me realize that more and more. These are just some pictures from the week before Preston left. I looooove looking at them :)

Romeo & Juliet inspired :)

Aw i love this one :)

"When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me.." 

<3

Haha :)

I love this boy more than anything in the world

Greys Anatomy.

I seriously love Grey's Anatomy. Period. 

This is the ONE show that sucks me in completely. My mind can be on nothing but mcdreamy. And Yang. And Izzie. And Meredith. And everything. 

I only started the series at Christmas when i got season 1 (I know, i'm SO behind. But i'm making up for lost time) I'm currently on season 3

"Hey, listen. For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something… to be with someone you can’t get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere… a kiss so hot and so deep that you never want to come up for air. You can’t cheat your first kiss. You don’t want to. Trust me. When you find that right person for a first kiss, it’s everything."

-Alex Karev- Grey’s Anatomy Episode 7 Season 2 “Something to talk about”

“Okay, here it is, your choice… it’s simple, her or me, and I’m sure she is really great. But, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.” - Meredith Grey

“But no matter how high the stakes, sooner or later, you’re just going to have to go with your gut, and, maybe just maybe, that’ll take you right where you were meant to be in the first place.”

—	Grey’s Anatomy, Season 7 Episode 14

This show just makes my heart stop. I could watch this show for hours. And hours. Seriously.

So, what has happened so far in season 3? I couldn't tell you much because of the fact that i just started it tonight. No. Izzie has not died yet (thank goodness) but Denny has :( I about died in that episode. Obviously i'm a big fan of Izzie. But i'm the biggest fan of.... (drum roll)....

                                                       Mcdreamy!!!

One man should not be allowed to look THIS good. I mean, seriously. "It's a beautiful day to save lives"

The End.

One Week..

It has only been one week since i said goodbye to the love of my life. And can I just said, this week has felt longer than a lifetime. I started to ask myself, "How am I supposed to get through 103 more of these"? The only thing i can think of that will get me through it is getting letters and emails from Preston.
Today was his first P-day at the MTC and i was beyond excited to get his first email, plus a letter from him tomorrow. I found myself constantly refreshing my yahoo home page in hopes of finding an email. Me and Preston had a deal. He'd write a general email to send to family and friends (and me of course) and then write me a personal email. If he could, he'd send it straight to me. But i'm pretty sure he can only email immediate family. In that case, he was going to write me an email, send it to him mom, and his mom would forward it to me. We had it all planned out. Well, tonight i finally received his general email to everyone. But then i realized i wasn't getting a personal one....
Reading his general email might have been worse than not getting one at all.. I feel bad saying that. But i just hate the fact that it didn't address me at all.. There was a part in the email that said, "I thought I would die without without sports, a phone, ipod, friends, and all the other things that make my world go around." And i couldn't help but be upset because he didn't mention me. I feel so selfish for saying that but i can't help it. After reading the email, I cried for awhile. I can't feel like Preston is a stranger. I just can't... I'm sure getting a letter tomorrow will make everything better (I hope) but I just can't help but be sad because we had it al figured out that he was going to send me an email, but didn't.
Since Preston is going to Hungary, we were totally going to rely on email. Hungary is basically halfway around the world from Utah. I've heard girls say that it can take longer than 3 weeks to get a letter from that part of the world. Because of the fact that letters are going to be so delayed, Preston and I knew emailing would be a lifesaver. We're still going to write letters, but i'm going to feel stuck in the past if i'm constantly reading letters that are from 3 weeks before.
I'm just really ready for us to get into a rhythm again. I hate not knowing when i'm going to hear from him, or if i'm going to get an email or not. I just have to hold my head up till May 8th when I get to talk to him on Mothers Day. By then, he will have been in Hungary for 2 weeks :)
I really am praying that things will get better. I need comfort and peace. I'm 100% committed to waiting. All Preston has to do is send a letter and an email... Is that too much to ask for? I know he's going to be busy. But even if it's just a couple sentences... That's worth it.
I really hope things get better.

                     This is mine and Preston's last picture taken of just the two of us.
                                        We went to Tucano's right before the MTC.

                                                                  All of us at the MTC

Tomorrow is The Big Day..

Preston leaves tomorrow... :(
I have surprisingly been happy most of the past week. And even today. All i think about is how much we're both going to experience everything through letters, cassettes, and pictures. And then when he gets back, it's just happily ever after from there :)
I'm sitting in class right now, and my phone keeps vibrating. Random YW leaders and old friends keep texting me saying, "I just wanted to wish you luck. I'm so proud of you for supporting Preston with this decision. It'll be awesome for both of you..." and so on. And this is when i get emotional.. I started tearing up in class a half hour ago. Just because it forces me to think about it. I really am extremely proud of him. I will just miss him because he's my boyfriend but even more importantly, my best friend.
I'm trying to imagine what saying goodbye will be like and i honestly cant.. It's going to be surreal. I am going with him and his family to the MTC. I know some girls don't, but it would kill me to say goodbye the night before. Especially because the next morning i'd want to text him and say "Good morning" but i would have already said bye so i'd basically have to say bye again. Basically i can't say Bye the night before and know he's still here, know that he's only a couple minutes away. I have to be with him up until the last possible minute.
Wish me luck...