Missing Him..

This is what happens when I'm home alone on Presidents Day...

I make slide shows. At least it's almost been 2 weeks!! Yay?

I just love this boy more than anything. And I really like this slide show :) 

    

    Song = I Wanna Grow Old With You - Westlife

You Make Me Crazier..

I'm crazier about this boy every single day. Being away from him makes me realize that more and more. These are just some pictures from the week before Preston left. I looooove looking at them :)

Romeo & Juliet inspired :)

Aw i love this one :)

"When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me.." 

<3

Haha :)

I love this boy more than anything in the world

Greys Anatomy.

I seriously love Grey's Anatomy. Period. 

This is the ONE show that sucks me in completely. My mind can be on nothing but mcdreamy. And Yang. And Izzie. And Meredith. And everything. 

I only started the series at Christmas when i got season 1 (I know, i'm SO behind. But i'm making up for lost time) I'm currently on season 3

"Hey, listen. For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something… to be with someone you can’t get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere… a kiss so hot and so deep that you never want to come up for air. You can’t cheat your first kiss. You don’t want to. Trust me. When you find that right person for a first kiss, it’s everything."

-Alex Karev- Grey’s Anatomy Episode 7 Season 2 “Something to talk about”

“Okay, here it is, your choice… it’s simple, her or me, and I’m sure she is really great. But, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.” - Meredith Grey

“But no matter how high the stakes, sooner or later, you’re just going to have to go with your gut, and, maybe just maybe, that’ll take you right where you were meant to be in the first place.”

—	Grey’s Anatomy, Season 7 Episode 14

This show just makes my heart stop. I could watch this show for hours. And hours. Seriously.

So, what has happened so far in season 3? I couldn't tell you much because of the fact that i just started it tonight. No. Izzie has not died yet (thank goodness) but Denny has :( I about died in that episode. Obviously i'm a big fan of Izzie. But i'm the biggest fan of.... (drum roll)....

                                                       Mcdreamy!!!

One man should not be allowed to look THIS good. I mean, seriously. "It's a beautiful day to save lives"

The End.

One Week..

It has only been one week since i said goodbye to the love of my life. And can I just said, this week has felt longer than a lifetime. I started to ask myself, "How am I supposed to get through 103 more of these"? The only thing i can think of that will get me through it is getting letters and emails from Preston.
Today was his first P-day at the MTC and i was beyond excited to get his first email, plus a letter from him tomorrow. I found myself constantly refreshing my yahoo home page in hopes of finding an email. Me and Preston had a deal. He'd write a general email to send to family and friends (and me of course) and then write me a personal email. If he could, he'd send it straight to me. But i'm pretty sure he can only email immediate family. In that case, he was going to write me an email, send it to him mom, and his mom would forward it to me. We had it all planned out. Well, tonight i finally received his general email to everyone. But then i realized i wasn't getting a personal one....
Reading his general email might have been worse than not getting one at all.. I feel bad saying that. But i just hate the fact that it didn't address me at all.. There was a part in the email that said, "I thought I would die without without sports, a phone, ipod, friends, and all the other things that make my world go around." And i couldn't help but be upset because he didn't mention me. I feel so selfish for saying that but i can't help it. After reading the email, I cried for awhile. I can't feel like Preston is a stranger. I just can't... I'm sure getting a letter tomorrow will make everything better (I hope) but I just can't help but be sad because we had it al figured out that he was going to send me an email, but didn't.
Since Preston is going to Hungary, we were totally going to rely on email. Hungary is basically halfway around the world from Utah. I've heard girls say that it can take longer than 3 weeks to get a letter from that part of the world. Because of the fact that letters are going to be so delayed, Preston and I knew emailing would be a lifesaver. We're still going to write letters, but i'm going to feel stuck in the past if i'm constantly reading letters that are from 3 weeks before.
I'm just really ready for us to get into a rhythm again. I hate not knowing when i'm going to hear from him, or if i'm going to get an email or not. I just have to hold my head up till May 8th when I get to talk to him on Mothers Day. By then, he will have been in Hungary for 2 weeks :)
I really am praying that things will get better. I need comfort and peace. I'm 100% committed to waiting. All Preston has to do is send a letter and an email... Is that too much to ask for? I know he's going to be busy. But even if it's just a couple sentences... That's worth it.
I really hope things get better.

                     This is mine and Preston's last picture taken of just the two of us.
                                        We went to Tucano's right before the MTC.

                                                                  All of us at the MTC

Tomorrow is The Big Day..

Preston leaves tomorrow... :(
I have surprisingly been happy most of the past week. And even today. All i think about is how much we're both going to experience everything through letters, cassettes, and pictures. And then when he gets back, it's just happily ever after from there :)
I'm sitting in class right now, and my phone keeps vibrating. Random YW leaders and old friends keep texting me saying, "I just wanted to wish you luck. I'm so proud of you for supporting Preston with this decision. It'll be awesome for both of you..." and so on. And this is when i get emotional.. I started tearing up in class a half hour ago. Just because it forces me to think about it. I really am extremely proud of him. I will just miss him because he's my boyfriend but even more importantly, my best friend.
I'm trying to imagine what saying goodbye will be like and i honestly cant.. It's going to be surreal. I am going with him and his family to the MTC. I know some girls don't, but it would kill me to say goodbye the night before. Especially because the next morning i'd want to text him and say "Good morning" but i would have already said bye so i'd basically have to say bye again. Basically i can't say Bye the night before and know he's still here, know that he's only a couple minutes away. I have to be with him up until the last possible minute.
Wish me luck...

You Know You're a Missionary Girlfriend If....

I found this on a website and totally love it :)

You know you're a MG if:

*The mailman/woman knows what you are looking for everyday in the mail and tells you if you got a letter or not
*You take pictures with the intention of sending them to your missionary.
*You can't even hold your boyfriend in your dreams cause somehow the mission rules creep into dreams as well
*You check the weather for a city you don't even live in...everyday
*You check the news headlines for a city you can't go to
*You check your email 500 times a day on P-day
*You know exactly how long it takes for your letters to be sent to your missionary!
*You also know exactly how long it takes for his letters to get to you!
*You know your missionary's address my heart, because you've sent him so many letters.
*You walk around walmart looking for cute package ideas to send him
*Mothers day is right up there with Christmas now, even though you arn't a mother.
*If someone ever told you to learn patience you would freak out...if anyone knows patience...it's us
*Here you are all grown up and you feel like you have, yet again, an imaginary boyfriend
*You don't wear your favorite perfume cause it was also HIS favorite perfume...so you save it to spray on letters
*You hold off 2 years on seeing a movie because you know that he would love to see it with you.
*You know exactly how long he has been gone, and exactly how long until he gets back.
*Calls from his family get almost as exciting as calls from him
*You find yourself wearing your hair the way your missionary BF likes it, even though he isn't around to enjoy it.
*you have a box full of letters sitting in your room and whenever you really miss your missionary you read them.
*Your screen saver and/or your desktop picture is pictures of both of you...or just him.
*You wonder if you'll ever have enough time or money to make up for two years worth of lost memories.
*Your youngest brother prays - BY NAME - for your missionary in family prayers. (true story!)
*You have a newfound intrest in foreign food -- for instance swedish fish and meatballs.
*Even your coworkers know when email day is and get excited for you giving high-fives and and talking about it all day.
*you have at least 3 calendars & they all are counting down to the day when your missionary comes home.
*you buy stamps in bulk.
*just hearing someone mention something about missionary work gets your complete attention.
*After you hit the one year mark, you subconciously begin planning your wedding.. looking at dresses, figuring out invitations..
*You look for excuses to drive past the temple because it inspires you to keep holding on to him!
*The people at the post office recognize you and know you by name.
*if you go out and do things sometimes just so you can tell your missionary you did them so he thinks you're doing alright...
*every time something exciting happens you think hmm....I wish he was here.
*You look at the time; then figure out the time difference; then wonder what he's doing at that very moment
*You are walking in the mall and you pass a tie rack.. somehow now your walking backwards to look at the ties and possibly buy one.
*You kiss the stuffed animal or promise ring he gave you before he left everynight before bed
*The day after he leaves you decided you need to get in shape for when he gets back home.. hahaha
*You have deep dislikement for anyone that laughed after you have told them you have a missionary
*You plan out the outfit you'll wear when you finally get to see him again
* You have your life planned out until that day in which he returns.. then you've got nothing but hope.
*You find yourself accidentally calling his number because you've dialed it so much
*You eat a skittle every night...or do something of the sort to help pass the days
*you have a gazillion countdown clocks on every imaginable place to put them.
*Not only do you have countdown clocks, but also count up clocks
*Your room is filled with pictures of your missionary and some guys you don't know
*Buying stamps is suddenly almost as exciting as buying new shoes.
*Your weeks no longer start on Sundays, they begin the day of the week he left, it helps you keep track of just how long he's been gone... Sometimes you wish you could get a calendar that starts on that day of the week too.
*You are one of the few girls who would rather NOT talk about her boyfriend to people you just meet because you know they are all pretty much going to tell you the same thing the last person said when you say they're gone on a mission, "you know, two years is a long time, a lot can happen...." etc... haha. (like we didn't know two years is a long time... sheesh)
*You now hate those firesides where the talk is all about getting married as soon as possible, but just go for refreshments and suffer through it.
*During the day you think about what you're going to write him in the next letter.
*you are constantly defending the fact that you have a boyfriend that you won't see for 2 years
*any time you see a guy in a suit you get excited because it might be an MG's missionary!
*if you run into the house squealing your family doesn't even ask- they already know why- you got a letter!
*you have a stuffed animal he gave you that you sleep with every night
*you want to beat halo 3 because you know how excited your missionary would be that you beat it
*you say things that only other girls waiting for a missionary would say and not think is absolutely ridiculous like "ONLY 673 days left!"
*you know what an MG is!!!

Christmas/New Year 2011!!

Wow, Christmas and New Years went by way too fast. It's now January 2... Which is 37  days away from Feb 9 (the day Preston leaves) and time is just going by faster and faster every day. But ya know what, i'm just trying to enjoy everyday i have left with him :)
We had a LOT of fun over Christmas Break :)

We made a awesome gingerbread house at our ugly Christmas sweater party :)

We made snowmen that are holding hands :p

We also took the trax up to Salt Lake :)

And we went to Temple Square :)                   

      

And for Christmas i got a Dallas Cowboys jersey (our favorite team) and a beautiful locket and a bracelet :) He always gives me the best presents. Now school just starts in three days... I'm not so excited about that. But i AM excited about applying for a BYU study abroad soon :) I can't decide if i wanna go to Vienna Austria or Italy... It's a tough decision. 

As of right now, i'm just trying to get as much out of my time with Preston as possible. And i'm trying to keep everything as normal as possible :) as in, even if i'm thinking about it all the time, i'm not talking about it non stop. Which i think is good :)